travel around alor star

Started my first weekend, i went to travel around alor star. First, i went to watch movie together with my friend at alor star mall. We watch Dylan Dog: night of dead. Not bad the movie. Finish movie, we go Menara Alor Star. Raining on the way we went there, but stop when we reach the top. The wind was strong and refreshing. Seeing the night view of Alor Star really feel very calm. We took a lot of pictures but some are blur due to the strong wind.

night view of Alor Star

Having fun of taking photo at the top. After that we rushed to ICT. There got a lot of light trees. We cant wait to take photo there. Unfortunately, it started to rain when we were half way taking photo. We need to stop and head to restaurant to cure our staomach. ^^

The food at that restaurant is not bad. The tom yam is best among those i had tried. But not the best in the world. hahax... The price also quite reasonable but for me it is very expensive because i loss my umbrella here. sob... sob... I just bought it not even two months and i like it so much because it is purple in color. 

After lossing my dear umbrella, i do not have mood to play already. Actually we do not have other place to go also. hahax.... Heading home and rest and wait for the next trip. ^^

alor star first day trip

Today is my first day to Alor Star. Depart early in the morning at 6am from my house. Bring so many things to there feel like refugee. Reach there at 9am plus and waiting for my friend to come and bring me to her house. While waiting, I'm being misunderstood by people that I'm worker of the Chinese shop. Am I look like a worker? I'm not a local resident also.

After reach my friend's house and have some tea. We headed to Museum Paddy to see a beautiful and big painting. First time I see father enjoying taking photo and the painting so much.

with my coursemate, Piqah.

this is outside the museum. ^^

Met a new friend. Farhana. Can say is my this coming one month neighbour. hahax...

funny picture. My father laugh till non stop. 

At night, my coursemate and her family brought me go shopping at Pacific. I only can have window shopping. After that we had some drinks and went pasar malam nearby. So enjoyable today.What will happen tomorrow? I'm waiting for it. 

珍惜（新的领悟）

今天和几个朋友相聚，听她们说的别人的故事，我突然领悟了很多。朋友说她的一个朋友和男朋友相恋七年，男朋友因毕业之后在某个公司上班时，有一个女同事对他特别好，他感到女同事对他有意思，便对相恋七年的女朋友说分手。他说：我对你没有感觉了，我已经厌倦你了。女朋友当场哭得死去活来。谁知当那个男生向她的女同事表白时，女同事却说：你误会了，我根本不是喜欢你，也不喜欢比我小的男生。突然我觉得那个男生很可怜。失去了一个爱他的人，也得不到他人的爱。人有时就是这样，找到更好的就不要以前的。找到了新的感觉就遗忘了以前曾经也有过的感觉。为什么一旦没有了之前的激情就认为没有感情了。难道在找到新恋情时或分手前所为对方做的事都是假的吗？是对方逼的？还是只是为了做给对方看？给别人看？难道那些在不知不觉中为对方做的事例如过马路时自动牵对方手时，睡觉时不知不觉拥抱对方，都不是因为爱？只是在伪装？

如果是我，当我对一个人完全没有感觉时，我连碰都不会想碰他。那，那些情不自禁做的事，难倒就真的没有感觉？还是一种习惯？还是什么？激情或爱的感觉会随着时间改变。可以变坏，也可以变好。激情是不会长久的。会随着时间转化成细水长流的感觉，老夫老妻的感觉。听过一个故事，一对情侣，男的每年都会在女的生日时送她一朵玫瑰，起初女的非常开心，很幸福。年复一年，男的都是在生日时送女的玫瑰，女的虽然已经不再觉得甜蜜， 不再惊喜，没有期待，可这并不代表她不爱他了。难道多年的夫妇也还要靠着当年的感觉才能维持下去吗？爱实在是太深奥，不是一时三刻能弄得清楚。


朋友还在讨论怎样可以找到更好的。如何能找到一的更有钱更帅更有才能的男孩。身边已经有一个对你好的，不好好珍惜，想尽办法寻找更好的。有的人想对某个人好却偏偏被拒于门外。能找到一个和你有同样的思想，同样的生活节奏又爱你的人请好好珍惜，在千千万万的人里真的不容易。

n女孩们请不要太依赖男孩们。

一个人的生活

One person's life was quite enjoyable. I can do whatever i like. No need to care about other people, no need to think about how to give him surprise, what gift to give, etc. Just sometimes i feel lonely, feel like nobody with me. Even though i know i still have friends. But sometimes, friends cannot give me the care that i need. I know i shouldn't think so much. I should enjoy my single life as much as possible.

I asked one of my friends: won't you feel tired every time you start a new relationship? You need to build a relationship with a person who you do not know and you need to start all over again and go through all the stages. he can't give me an answer. Some people might think that it is the feeling they want when started a new relationship. They want feelings that drive them to love their partner. Some will not. Sometimes, love is too complicated for a person to understand and handle it. Hope that we are not being manipulated by "love".

我以为我可以放下，原来我还需要时间。

缘

人的一生也许会有很多次的恋爱，
但有多少次是真爱呢？
人总是在寻寻觅觅，寻找一生中的最爱，
也许，这会很花心，但却是事实
如果你爱一个人，随遇而安，让他自由的飞，
如果最后他还是回到你的身边，
那就是命中注定的。
愿大家都能珍惜身边的幸福。

                                             摘自 其实爱情离你很近~

对不起，我不想知道你的消息~

I like to think alone. This few days, i have a deep though and i decided to change my ways to deal with this past relationship. i don't want to angry anymore. i don't want to think why it happened on me or is it my responsibility to cause this? i know i got the responsibility also. I have done self reflection these few days. to treat myself and him good is to be happy and moving on. I know he also feel guilty or sad. I know he don't wish to be like that also. We have done our best but hardly can control the outcome.

I choose to keep my love to him deep inside my heart. Frankly say, he is my ideal partner. Even he don't love me, but i still will keep my feeling inside my heart. I would not avoid to think about him. Not because i still cannot let go. This is only a way for me to appreciate what he had done for me so far. (I mean the good things) It is more easy and relieve for me to keep love than to bear grudge. What's wrong loving a person right? When you have love then only you will receive love. :)

Just got somethings that i still cant understand. Why he choose to give me so many sweet memories since he is going to leave me? I don't want to ask him. I rather use my imagination to imagine whatever good reason than i know the truth. It can help to maintain his good impression in my heart. I also wish the person i love can have a happy life. Not only him, i love my family and my friends too. I also will wish them to live a happy life. When they happy, i also will be happy. :)

Now i'm more happy than last time.Anyway, i really wish to thank him for so many sweet memories. I will treasure it. "Thanks a lot and sorry for what i have done to hurt you." 


x心中有爱才会人见人爱。
今天的果是昨日的因。

My hobby is sleeping since primary school. But during the days without him, i hate sleeping. That is the time i think of him the most and i will start to miss him or even dream about him. I dream about how he treat me so bad and i cry. Until when only i can totally let go of him? I don't want to sleep, unless i'm very very tired. Scare to dream about him anymore. Don't wish to be hurt again in dream.

I always tell myself to forgive him. But when i think about how he treat me (not that he treat me bad), i cant convince myself to forgive him and treat him as friend. I suddenly query about his love to me since the beginning. I told myself not to think so much, but sometimes i just cant control it. Yoke Kuan!!! Faster wake up!!! Faster recover!!!! Don't think of someone who don't love you anymore!

This few days i will suddenly feel like i become lonely, nobody love me and care me already. But today i suddenly realize that the one who care and love me much is not him, is my parents. they have love and care me for 23 years. The one who hurt me only care and love me for 4 years. Not fully 4 years also. Excluding study and working time, the time we spend together only a few months, 24 hours per day. Maybe this is also one of the factors that he leave me i think. I think i also responsible to it. Just for time being, i really cant treat him as friend. Not because of he leave me, but the way he settle a problem. Or is it his good personality that cause this to happen?

上天会眷顾被伤害的人。
优点也会成为某方面的缺点，缺点也会成为某方面的优点。